Another journal no one probably cares about~ Yay~

Lol. But seriously. I dunno why I'm writing these. probably because a certain someone is. And her updating reminds me to. Plus it's nice to have a place to constantly vent without talking the ears off of a friend. This way, you have a choice in whether you want your ears or not~ 83

Okay, so right now I'm alternating between DDR and facebook. Not because I really want to DDR, but because I eat too much and am afraid of getting fat. Seriously, I've gained maybe 5-10 pounds, and my stomach, which used to only poke out a tiny bit, is becoming noticeable. Which makes me self-conscious. And it doesn't help that my friend keeps yelling at me for eating. I CAN'T help it, my meds make me hungry, and I eat when I'm hungry. And it seems when I don't eat, that I get really tired and end up falling asleep. Which she also yells at me for. There's a lot of yelling at me going on... >.>'

My friend's boyfriend's coming down for Thanksgiving... which makes me lonely. And it's not like I really want a relationship so much, because i can wait for one. I just want... well, sex. And sexual things. I have a high sex drive, and I'm tired of dealing with it on my own. So I just want to fool around a little. Thing is, though, I'm not into drugs and drinking and whatnot. I mean, if others are drinking I'm fine with it, but I won't drink myself. And people think I'm all innocent, so I don't get invited places. So, pretty much, unless I magically get invited someplace or something, I need a relationship to get what I want...

I feel like such a fucking guy. Lol.

I hate myself sometimes. I just can't open up to strangers. I just like, totally fail and get all quiet and stuff. I've gotten better to where I can talk if I want to or something, but I don't unless I have to, because I dunno what to say. So yeah. I hate that.

So yeah. I don't know what else to say. If you bothered to read this, and have any advice, comment? Or not. It's up to you, really. Feedback would be appreciated though.